So There's This Guy..

Yeah. I know. You hear this all the time from your friends. Too bad,it's from me now too. So there's this guy. He's really sweet and cute and I really like him. I've known him for about three years now I didn't like him before. He used to like me and he still kinda does, but yeah. The thing is neither of us are dating. It... commitment..not my thing. Scary shit, man. He's not dating because he's 'Taking time to devote to God'..which...is bad for me. Yeah me? Pagan as hell. So that's...lovely. Stupid baptists. No, just kidding. Still, though. Me against God? I'm not liking those odds.
Anyway. So this guy, he's great and all, but dating him? It just scares me so bad. I've been in three real relationships and one that lasted two days, so I don't count it. My actual relationships..they were serious. The shortest one was two months, the longest eight months. The last guy I dated, the one I went out with for eight months, he cheated on me with my best friend (and went out with her for two months). Every since I've decided I'm not dating. That was five months ago. So I've been purposely not dating for five months. But this guy..he might change that. I really want him to, but at the same time...I don't want to get hurt again. Not to mention my promise to myself not to date until I was 120 lbs (twelve pounds away! I've already lost fourteen) But...god. I want him. We'll see...