Oh Wow...

Wow. Just wow. He asked me what I would say if he asked me out and I said that after freaking out I would say yes. I ask him the same and he says that he likes me but doesn't want to mess up our friendship. Wow. How idiotic am I? I then proceeded to slam my head into a wall. Quite literally. I was sitting against my wall and I just slammed my head backwards. Still got the headache. I just kinda want to die right now. Mostly because he asked me out a year ago and I said no. I didn't like him then. God. I have the best timing ever.

I'm sooo stupid. Can I not keep in mind the thought of how much I got hurt last time I opened up? Or the promise I made to myself. I will not date until I'm twelve pounds lighter.